I was supposed to water fast today but as usual, lost control. But at least I didn't lose thaaat much control.
Today(so far, hopefully I don't eat dinner).
Breakfast:
-Milo and marshmallows
Lunch:
-Coke
-Burger
-Fries
all of which I puked up.
Dinner:
It's not here yet =\
I'm five days away from my first target weight, which is to lose 2.3kg. Great. That means I have to starve from today on, no more excuses. Hah stomach.
Progress so far:
Basically I just weighed myself. And my weighing scale can tell me my fat percentage, water percentage and weight.
Here's the results:
Weight: 38.8kg (lost only 0.5kg!)
Fat percentage: 16.3%
Water percentage: 57.5% (although I don't think it's really necessary to keep track of this.)
The previous results on 16 Aug (two days ago) was:
Weight: 39.3kg
Fat percentage: 17.1 (!? so fat!)
Water: I cant remember.
Well here goes no dinner.
at this pace, 2days/0.5kg, by my target date I would have lost only 1.75kg! Got to eat less.
Do people care anymore? sigh.
The girl who doesn't know how to love.
I don't know how to love people. I don't know how to love myself. I don't know how to be loved. Yeah sure people love me, but I don't know how to accept their love. I don't know how to stop all the hating. The only normal people who know me as this person as well are those whom I trust, maybe because they can't reach me, or maybe because I feel safer this way, or maybe...
I don't know.
Stay hidden,
stay strong.