I'm very angry with myself. I'm hating myself right now with such anger, I just don't want to be anymore.
I ate today. Although I told myself I wouldn't. Such a loser with no self control at all, I'm such a stupid stupid failure.
Today:
drank tea (?!) -17.3g carbo
ate like 1.5 pieces of sushi and I have no idea how much carbos it carries.
ate a peach tart, dug out the custard and ate the crust and peach. I assume it has 50g of carbo. But probably more. Sigh.
Lunch was tons of vege with two awesome fishballs and one piece of chicken and and oh some weird meat(?!) thing that is as small as my little finger. Good.
Drank H20 apple. That was like 40.3g!!
ate four cookies.
And more vege.
And two more fishballs. O_O! (what's with me and fishballs! ohwell).
today:
Ran 4.2km
Trained during softball.
Sigh.
5 more days.
2kg to lose.
can I?
Will I?