Hi I'm feeling extremely awful and down right now because I bloody binged a little during dinner. Had a bowl of soup and an orange and then I had to eat the stupid three nuggets. Oh and drank green tea. I'm feeling awful and fat and annoyed and very angry.
I HATE MY STUPID MIDDLE OK.
Dammit and I hate how no one sees me as fat and they just keep pulling me down telling me that I'm thin and I should eat more.
Ha.
I want to go for softball camp because I can starve there but no, my mom won't let me stay there for camp I must come home damndamndamn. I'm so miserable right now and feeling weak. Stupid body why feel weak, I can live on lack of food because food is so damn sly it makes you think it's good then it makes you fat. Ha.
Sometimes I should like to pray a prayer and ask God to bring me back to heaven faster so I don't have to face fat reality.
Starve on.. XX