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Today I think I took things a little too far.Binged for lunch and dinner.After lunch I couldn't take it so I went to the toilet and threw up. But only around 1/4 of my lunch came back up so I exited the toilet and went to the water cooler right outside and drank a ton of water. Went back in and threw up. That was when I realised I was throwing up blood. So I stopped. I've not thrown up until there's blood before. Really freaks me out. That means that there's a tear or wound somewhere along my gullet or stomach. Then there was this dull pain at my heart area and also around the middle of my gullet. Probably where all the bright red blood was coming from.Gosh I binged for dinner but didn't dare to throw up again in case I cause the wound to tear further or something. I don't need that.Even now it's still hurting and hurting. And I hate myself for eating.Damn it.It hurts like shit! Gives me the feeling that I want to throw up again. Or something dammit. ARGH.OKAY byebye.
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